-stands up on her soapbox- If you do not wish to see a rant... You may go. For those who are just interested in what's been going on and a nonsensical wall of text... PLEASE TAKE A SEAT. 8D
So, at the moment, I have no patience for anyone who even so much as glances at me wrong, and I'm rather sure I've been pissing people off to no end with that attitude. However, I'm in the mindframe where I just want a shirt with this printed on it: s3.amazonaws.com/rapgenius/4db…
so I can walk around just daring people to try and make me care. :3 It's been a very long and trying few weeks for me, and I have recently decided that the phrase, "No good deed goes unpunished." now should be my motto. -sigh- It's tiring to keep on sticking my neck out for ungrateful people, and it's really become a challenge to continue caring when those involved clearly don't have the capacity to. I've also come to the conclusion that those I am related to are now genetically inclined to break the law, and why this genetic condition has skipped me has led me to wonder if perhaps I am adopted. If so, I will throw a never-ending party, and everybody I know is invited. I loathe almost 90% of my genetic relations.
As someone who is on social assistance, I am the first (and usually quite quickly) to admit that the system is seriously and horribly flawed. However, again, as someone on social assistance, I am grateful that I can use the system to keep me both off the streets, in school, and fed. And, whether or not it's because of my inclination to find work in the field of law, I have a healthy, if somewhat exasperated, respect for said law. Loopholes exist, and the system may be flawed, but I do all I can to live within my limits, and legally. My family, unfortunately, do not share this moral compass. Today, after doing much to help someone close to me, and risking almost everything I've struggled to gain in my two-plus years of being on my own in the process, I discovered that apparently sticking my neck out for said person will probably blow up in my face. And rather spectacularly, at that. It's not only a personal disappointment, but a rather stark realization that it may be time to just start systematically cutting my roots, one painful snip at a time.
It isn't a decision I make lightly, but, in recent years, I have been urged by worried friends and even therapists, that keeping poisonous relationships going simply is sapping my strength and sanity. The main problem is that said poisonous relationships are all from my family. I haven't spoken to my biological mother is over a year due to finding out she committed fraud (five thousand dollars and counting), have trouble depending on a father who acts like a thirteen year old boy, have separated from one sister due to her sociopathic tendencies, another for her drug use, the other because of her abivalence towards everything else going on in life. Now it seems my fourth and youngest sibling will be the final and last for me to cut out of my life, due to her irritating tendency to make a decision and extremely turn about and reverse said decision. While it's an annoying character trait in general, this trait has come to bite me hard in the ass.
I have looked back lately and wondered: Perhaps it's me. And, unfortunately, that may be true. I have low tolerance for idiocy in many forms, and even family is not immune to this. The saying "Blood is thicker than water" has never really applied to me. Mostly because, as far as I am concerned, blood is simply another liquid, and family is something you create and keep, not just something you are born into. While I give you that this isn't a sentiment held by many... When I'm already fighting to stay sane and to keep myself afloat, adding on other's issues that I have attempted time and time again to help resolve only to realize no one really cares about my input... it's hard to keep moving forward.
For my own sake, I'm having a difficult time thinking of any other options. I have found a maternal figure in my ex's mother, (and I treat her as my mother in all ways save one, I do not call her by any maternal term), and even she is beginning to urge me to run for higher ground. I'm not entirely sure I have the energy to stay and keep fighting. Sometimes it seems flight is the only way to survive.
-steps off of her soapbox and sighs- Sorry guys, I know you probably don't care about my issues, but it feels so much better to just let it out. So, I will now switch to my last topic. Higurashi No Naku No Koro Ni: Kaku! Okay, I was so pumped for Kaku when I first heard about it, and when I heard it had finally been released and then subbed... I all but flipped my everloving lid. Now, after sitting down and watching it through... These are my thoughts, listed in order of relevance from plot, characters, music, and overall impression. SPOILERS AHOY!
Plot (Scored: 2.5/5): I always wondered what the global consequence of Hinamizawa syndrome could become, and Kaku slammed the idea of a cynical outlook pretty damn hard into your face. Riots, in-fighting, paranoia and... well, lots of death. This isn't very surprising, and I thought it played out rather realistically as the government, (and the mysterious Alphabet project) trying to use the syndrome as their own biological weapon rather than something they should be curing. Of course, as it continued on and tried to focus on both the club's efforts to save Satoko while flashing back to Takano (SERIOUSLY, OMG, HELLO GRANDPA TAKANO!?) explaining that NINETY-NINE PERCENT OF THE WORLD IS INFECTED WITH THIS PARASITIC DISEASE kind of... well, ruined things for me. While it was an interesting take, I really didn't like the idea of blaming humanity's general history of bigotry on a mind-melding parasite. It was very difficult to swallow. Has the OVA stuck to the containment of Hinamizawa, and the reaction of the world deciding to deal with said residents and said syndrome... I think I would have been able to accept it a little more easily. Of course, with most of what went down in Kaku, (including Hanyuu's random decision to just gtfo, Rika remaining behind, Rena and Keiichi becoming super soldiers)... it's kind of just... a big departure from what I was used to in Higurashi. The nostalgia factor brought the rating up, but the plot made me shake my head frequently, so I had to rate it at a dead even.
Music (Scored: 4/5): Oh lord, please, that soundtrack! The ending song just brought back all of the feels, and several scenes where the haunting but gorgeous vocals were going... Enough to bring goosebumps. Higurashi always had some amazing music swimming around, and the OVA did not disappoint with the usage of it. Even though the plot had me going "lulwut" the music kept it going, and I thoroughly loved the sound.
Characters (Scored: 1/5): Okay, seriously, where is my Higurashi cast and what the hell have you done to them? Putting aside the fact that Shion was just mysteriously absent, (and we all know Shion would have torn every single idiot who was holding Satoko hostage a new asshole while saving her), I'm not honestly sure what everyone was doing or why. The main lesson in Higurashi and Kai was that killing was bad, and both Rena and Keiichi in particular suffered horribly in the second season due to their breaks from reality and their particular killing sprees. While Rena had a rather great excuse going on with her father having just been killed, Keiichi... did not. And I'll also admit it was great to see Rena back in Yandere mode with that cleaver... I can't say that most of their actions were plausible. I was a bit disappointed with Mion, as I can't imagine her ever be willing to sit things out, shot or not. And considering Rena was shot and just kept going... Well, it didn't make me happy. (Granted, I'm a huge Mion fan, so I'm biased.) I really just see Mion refusing to sit out of a good fight even if the poor girl has her arms chopped off... And I'm not going to talk about Irie swallowing a gun, or Rika just sitting there like: "Well... Okay."
Overall (Scored 2/5): Can't say I enjoyed it, but I can't exactly say that I hated it. It was great seeing Higurashi in action again, but... but... It just didn't... It's hard to explain. The characters didn't seem to be the characters I was used to, and the plot didn't make as much sense as I wanted it to, either. It was awesome seeing new Higurashi stuff, and the music brought back much nostalgia, but... I just couldn't get into it the way I wanted to. It was sort of a let down.
And I leave you with a small script I chucked at :iconkrissehpoo2: while we were texting about Kaku, and what I thought would have been amusing to actually see.
Mion: -no arms- LET'S KEEP GOING AND GET SATOKO ALREADY.
Keiichi: Look at you, you stupid bastard, you've got no arms left!
Mion: Yes, I have!
Mion: It's just a flesh wound! LET'S GO.
Shion: ... Yeah, so, while you guys were arguing... I just went and got Satoko.
Satoko: Nee-nee is scary. :3
Rena: Welp... that was pointless.
Irie: BOOM, HEADSHOT.